life-after-miscarriage-a-frustrating-existence

Life After Miscarriage: A Frustrating Existence

This month,  we should have been buying nursery furniture. We should have been painting the bedroom, transforming it from gift wrapping room to soft, comfortable space with a crib, and a rocking chair and tiny hangers in the closet. Instead we’re wondering when, or even if, we’re going to be able to conceive again.

If I had to pick one word to sum up the past four months of my life it would be “frustration.”

  • On March 22, I was frustrated that my doctor couldn’t tell me anything more hopeful than there was a 50 percent chance that I would miscarry.
  • On March 29, I was frustrated that the child I dreamed about holding at Thanksgiving was gone.
  • On April 8, I was frustrated because my body continued to hold on to the remains of the baby.
  • On April 9, I was frustrated because the Misoprostal didn’t work and I had to take another dose.
  • On April 13, I was frustrated because I was caught off-guard at work with the brunt of the miscarriage.
  • On April 23, I was frustrated because it was supposed to be the end of my first trimester.
  • On April 27, I was frustrated because there was still a significant amount of HCG in my blood stream.
  • On May 16, I was frustrated that a month worth of days had passed and I still hadn’t had a period. (It finally arrived on June 16).
  • On July 16, I was frustrated because my second cycle had not yet arrived.
  • On July 20, I was frustrated because I had a negative pregnancy test but still no period.

And on July 22, I called my doctor. “Uhh. Hi Betty. It’s Emily. I’m on Cycle Day 38. I’m really frustrated. How am I supposed to conceive again if I’m not having regular periods?”

I have a doctor’s appointment in a few days.

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One Response to “Life After Miscarriage: A Frustrating Existence”

  1. Jenn Jenn Says:

    I’m sorry everything is so frustrating. I can relate! I do hope that your doctor’s appointment goes well and you can get some answers and start carrying on with the business of..well, making babies! :) Take care of yourself – that’s the biggest thing for now…and, I’m thinking of you! Wishing you the best…soon!
    Jenn




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